I always hear this phrase, “If you fail to plan, you plan to fail.”. And I always end up being scared. Not because I don’t have dreams or visions or whatever, but because I have to many dreams, too many wishes, too many desires, that I am having a hard time to really choose what I want.
One of my weaknesses is that, I don’t know how to focus. Maybe I do know, but I’m not good at it.
Whenever I hear good things from different people, I tend to get too excited that I am adding another vision to the next.
My friend Karen told me that because I have these too many dreams, I am failing to plan already. And that sucks.
Last week, I prayed that God would reveal to me what His plans are. And maybe because I wasn’t really earnestly seeking his answer, He just reminded me of what I do have right now, and that it needs me more than my dreams.
I lost my oh so old and loved HP laptop in my shop last week. I was just sad because all of the shop’s files were there. And though it runs so slow already, I still wanted to bless it to someone, and right now all I have is this borrowed laptop, and I have nothing to give.
My small business needs me, I know, and yet my heart is torn between this and my desires. I am doing this to remind myself that I really need to focus on my work. My crafts.
Yes, my dreams can wait. And yeah, Dawin, you will never reach your dreams without having enough funds. Gosh!
Oh yes, I need to focus on this business that I chose. I will start again. Without enough finances, I will do my work. I need to save up too. It has been a year and I am still struggling. I know I need to be careful in handling my finances.
I have too may dues too. Sadly, I am in debt. But I know my God is bigger than my problems. And that if I’d be just faithful in little things, He will then allow me to experience and enjoy the bigger ones. Bigger that what my heart is expecting.
I have learned in life not to expect too much, but from my God, too much is not even enough 🙂